Disappointed. Yes! (Wednesday, February 27, 2008 / 4:01 AM)
I have to admit and voice out from my heart that I am disappointed.
Yes! I am disappointed with my so-called friends. You see... These are friends, when you are all up and ok, everyone comes and be-friend with us. But when you are all down and fall, everyone walk away simply with no words. - Get the picture. Well... maybe some friends are nice and stay on with you. Just like my Rudy Herman - not only is he my boyfriend, he is my friend and soul mate. One of the reasons why I thanked god every night.
I have to thank them for coming to my birthday celebration! Thanks a lot - make my day so much....
I can see how easily they replace me with someone else. When there was a gathering, they were talking about work and stuff - I was their ex-colleague. I remembered clearly that when I want to say something, I wasn't given 100% and I felt hurt and insecure. I remembered clearly their willingness to help me before and now, everyone just walk and no words exchanged. They help me alot in terms of a friend to financial. - I salute them for that. But what about the meaning of friends, it just fell apart. That's the reason why I bubble so much about friends and so on... on one of my posts.
From the start, I always remember the phrase, "Friends come and GOOO.." But I always believe of giving it a second chance. It failed on me - very sad indeed. Disappointing I should say.
I make my promise now, I swear I won't have close friends whom I so-called "sisters". - Never be close friend with me, just friends.
This will never happen, everyone to me is a friend, but never a "close friend". Only of course, my one and only Rudy Herman. He is the person whom I should call 'close friend'.
till then,
ain
